Shine Transcript

Rhea: Something happened to me the last week and a half, two weeks of December, where it felt like all the pain I'd ever experienced in my life, emotional pain was coming back up all together. Like I don't really know how else to describe it. That week before was really much for me this idea that I cannot continue this way. I cannot keep giving my power to someone else. I cannot keep basing my happiness on other people around me, and I cannot keep blaming them when I'm not happy. And January has been really strange because of that. In some ways, I felt massively disconnected from the world. Whilst I'm in it and I'm feeling and I'm loving and I'm doing all the things I normally do; they felt a bit more separate from me. 

Liz: But I imagine that's a little bit not the case now. 

Rhea: No, it's totally not the case now. Now it kind of just feels . . .

Liz: Settled into it. 

Rhea: Yeah, totally.  

Liz: Everything that was pretty much bottled up in your emotional body that you didn't know how to make sense of it, because you were doing all the other work everywhere else, it needed somewhere to go and you finally just popped. Yours was in December. January for some. This is my make-or-break time and explode. Now to be fair, a lot of people are still trying to bottle it up. They're still trying to cork it. All right. I feel it. I feel it coming. Can't handle it right now. I can't handle it. Work is too demanding. I can't. I just can't face it.

Rhea: I guess I was really lucky because it was in Christmas. Everything was quite quiet, and I felt it and I've now come to a point where I cannot tolerate emotion sitting in me. They have to come out, whatever they are and so I think that was why I just let it all out  

Liz: Well, they're less scary now, aren't they?

Rhea: Yeah

Liz: A lot of the reason people have trouble facing them or dealing with them is they do feel like their emotions will kill them, or they will become so overwhelmed that they will become paralyzed.  

Rhea: What I've experienced over the past couple of years is once you allow an emotion, then not only does it burn itself out anyway, but what's left is what you needed to see, heal, learn, all the rest. And every time you do that, you are a little bit more at peace. So now when I have a big triggering and emotion, I do like to get it out. Some other states of being that's better is coming.  

Liz: Yeah. So, for anyone who experienced at the very end of 2019, or at the very beginning of 2020, that would have been the norm. It was a result of a lot of the work that people had been doing in 2019. And it's funny because we all say if you've done the work, then you're going to be okay. I'm not sure if we've ever really . . . do we ever really explain the work? what the work is? So how would you describe the work because you can sum up your work. 

Rhea: Not running away

Liz: Accepting 

Rhea: Dealing, but then in others I see is just things happening, and instead of saying it's not happening, it's not happening, being aware that it's happening and dealing with it.  

Liz: And also understanding why it's happening. I think that's really the bulk of the work that people were doing or have yet to do. And that's what some will need to be doing in 2020. Because that's ultimately the theme of this episode, the expansion, raising vibration. It's the understanding why the shift is happening. 

Rhea: And when we say understanding why the shift is happening, what we've seen is there will be as much as you don't want to accept it or admit it, a thread running through all your experiences that are showing the same core issue, and it's I Am Not Good Enough because <blank>. 

Liz: Yes. 

Rhea: And that blank will be what's being flung at you in every single way. And it'll sometimes be very silent, really subtle. Sometimes it'll be a lot more obvious. But there will be that core issue. Sometimes, I didn't even realize that I was healing those little bits of it, or even addressing those little bits of it until I'd come to the end of it, until I could piece all the bits together and go "oh!". Because that core issue was so deep, there was no way I could have handled it any other way, apart from allowing myself to do all the other bits in that 

Liz: Yes. And that's why sometimes it's difficult for people to explain what the "work" is, because sometimes you're conscious of it when you're making those connections, and we can recognize certain things, and other times you're not because you don't need to be. If you're always thinking then you're actually not healing anything.

Rhea: No, and I have to say all the “becauses” I was given, were that because it's a tool in the end. I just needed to know of a reason so that I could have my pain have one at the time, but actually, it only became clear near the end when you could join the dots. I couldn't join them before because I was still too far in it to even see what the dots were. So sometimes I think really the work is just not resisting when your shit gets flung up in your face, following your heart and seeing where it goes. If you ask me actually what the work was, it was ignoring logic, ignoring reason, and following my feelings wherever they went. 

Liz: Yeah 

Rhea: That was the work and allowing my feelings to finally have legitimacy. Unless there was a pain, a trauma, or something that needed to be addressed, I wouldn't have made those decisions in the first place, and I could only see why I did it much later. I don't know what 2020 is going to bring me. I don't have a fucking clue.

Liz: No, no, no one knows. We are so in the dark about how certain things are going to play out, and it's not because free will exists. As we discussed in the previous season, it's not about waiting for those to exert their will and then we can sort of see all that manifest on the surface. It's because we're leaving room. We're sort of being left the gift of surprise. It's the: can you get there on your own? So we know the what. We don't know the How, because the How is up to every individual. The How is everyone coming into themselves, realizing their potential. This year does carry with it a level of hope that we didn't have last year. Are you going to be able to, if you haven't really been doing the work?

Rhea: When this happens, it will be okay. So I'm going to focus on that things. When I'm in a committed relationship. Let's say when I look a certain way, I'm earning X amount of money. I'm not working on the steps to get to that place. I'm just focusing on the end and I'm wishing for it and hoping that it'll happen and waiting because once that happens, then my life can start. But actually, your life starts the second you decide to reach for that. And reaching for that is looking at your own life and going, what's stopping me right now? What experiences and things are being flung in my face that are mirroring to me where I'm holding myself back? And for me on a personal level, it was putting my power in other peoples' hands. And so that experience was mirrored back to me every time, because they were always going to let me down because I was letting myself down by not holding my own power. And only by working through that I could get to that end goal that I was looking for, and see that that was never the end goal in the first place. That was just the carrot that was getting me to work. I will do all of this to realize that, but once you do all those things like oh, that wasn't what I wanted anyway. This is what I wanted - just peace in me. 

Liz: Exactly. 

Rhea: That's what I always wanted. And whatever I look like, earn, love, whatever it is, that's just experiences I have, they have nothing to do with who I am and then everything changes. 

Liz: And that's when you realize your potential. That's actually that point. 

Rhea: Because then you can do anything and you Could be anything. And it's not because you've reached a special place where there's potential everywhere. It's now your old shit isn't holding you back anymore, and you have no idea what could come.

Liz: And that is why we can't say with such great certainty, what 2020 really is about and what it's really supposed to look like. 

Rhea: No, because all we know is that it won't be our old shit. That's as far as it goes, and that's great fucking news, by the way.

Liz: Fantastic. 

Rhea: It's the best news ever. 

Liz: Yes, I think some people really want to jump 10 steps ahead and think that it's all going to be amazing. 

Rhea: But honestly, if someone had told me two years ago, five years ago, 15 years ago, that we will get to a point where your old shit won't haunt you. Do you want more than that? I'd say No, I'm good. Because everything else I can just actually finally enjoy and not wait for the bottom to fling up below me.  

Liz: Or keep hoping for the next thing. 

Rhea: Yeah, because ultimately deep, deep down inside, you don't hate yourself. You think you hate yourself but the more you remove those layers, you start feeling more and more centered and more and more love and that's what we want. That's what we want to experience. So you want to keep going.

Liz: I think ultimately, what you come to understand is that your learning and the timing around your learning really is specific and unique to you and no one else, and that's why we can never compare our healing journeys, if you will, to anyone else's. Every person can raise their vibration and the higher your vibration, the more connected you become.  

Rhea: To? 

Liz: Yourself. The less disconnect you experience, the less disconnected you are, the more expanded you are able to become. That's why when we say our issues are finished, and they really are in many, many respects, they get finished, but they're never fully finished. You're just taking them to another level to aid your evolution. 

Rhea: So am I always going to be dealing with unlovable crap? 

Liz: No. What's going to happen though is that your perspective around it will get larger and larger and larger. What we want and what we need are people who are much expanded in themselves, because then they're able to access their souls and really connect their souls. And that's really what contains one's purpose. The more you divest yourself, the more your vibration is raised, and the higher your vibration, the more expanded you become. The more expanded you are, the more in your power you are 

Rhea: So what you're saying to me on a spiritual level is that as I divested myself of my shit, I can start saying, Wow, there's so much more to the world than just my fears and my really narrow view of life. 

Liz: Yes.

Rhea: So I am more expanded, and that is what expanded is, but because I'm not being physically weighed down by my shit, my vibration is lighter. It can rise. 

Liz: Yes 

Rhea: Right? And because my vibration is light and it can rise and I have a bigger view of the world, all of a sudden, I see that there is much more available to me, so much more power than I thought I did, because my fears was sucking my power away from me. And now that they're not sucking it, I can feel it and I use it and I can have it 

Liz: Which makes even more things possible.

Rhea: If it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. Wasn't meant to be. Cool beans! It doesn't have anything to do with I'm scared that I'm not good enough. 

Liz: But not everybody has that opportunity, as we sort of discussed a bit earlier, some people are still very stuck in where they are. Some feel very alone. They don't feel understood. They live within communities where they don't feel they can express themselves. And that's really tough. And I really feel for them because I feel like this year while everybody's really hopeful, and all over social media about this being their year, I'm like, you know what? I'm still thinking about the people who are very worried about getting through their day. The reality is that we can only get so far if the rest of humanity is not there. So we need to kind of help carry that. 

Rhea: Of course, because we will always be defined by our outliers.

Liz: What you can do if you're unable to really see all your shit and deal with it . . .

Rhea: Or even if you need a little pep. 

Liz: Yeah, because you don't have the luxury of time or space available. To get there, you can call on what we call Source Light, and Source Light is a very powerful, vibratory light that we can all access. Every one of us can access it. 

Rhea: How, how, how, how, how?

Liz: Ask for it. 

Rhea: Hi, can I have some Source Light please?

Liz: Okay, well, let's go back to what Source Light is, right? So the reason why it has such a high vibration is you're getting it directly from Source. Source is a source of all energy. It is such a high vibration that it appears translucent. 

Rhea: Translucent is what? Like a bit foggy?

Liz: Yes. In this case, it's transmitted through the heart. This is only one of three really effective ways to raise your vibration right now. The other two are sex and living our purpose. 

Rhea: So when you talk about sex, orgasm? 

Liz: When sex is powerful enough to raise your vibration, three things must be in place. It's not orgasm actually that has to occur. Well first of all, it's your partner. It's somebody with whom you are truly connected through the heart. 

Rhea: So someone you love?  

Liz: That you share love with. 

Rhea: Then what's the next thing? 

Liz: That they're servicing one another mutually. I am doing for you, you're doing for me. Third thing - intention.  

Rhea: Intention for what?  

Liz: The intention that they bring - I want to be with you, I want to connect with you. It's not the I need what you can do for me. For those who cannot avail themselves of that level of sexual connection, 

Rhea: It's really hard to find that sexual connection 

Liz: It really is.

Rhea: Because you have to be so in tune with yourself first to be able to allow anyone to even see you remotely like that 

Liz: So then you also have living your purpose, which is about as difficult as finding somebody to have really amazing sex with

Rhea: Really? It feels a lot easier. What is this meditation?

Liz: Okay, so this is the White Light of Source. So it's just called Source Light Meditation.

Rhea: Fine. And this meditation ... can we do it every day? 

Liz: Oh, yes. 

Rhea: We do that every hour? 

Liz: Yes. 

Rhea: Do it all the time? 

Liz: Yes.

Rhea: Okay. 

Liz: It's that benevolent and easy and simple. There are various versions of them floating around so this is not original; we’re just sharing it. And I find this one, once you get it down, takes one minute and you can do it while you're doing your laundry if you don't really want to sit down and do it. You can just 'hey calling in white light' and just picture it right there in your heart space and that's enough. Your space just might be a little brighter. So, you're going to close your eyes . . .

Rhea: Okay. 

Liz: And then just going to take a deep breath . . . in through your nose and out through your mouth. And however you're standing, sitting, lying down, it does not matter. How you're positioned is how you're positioned, and you're just going to accept that you are exactly where you are meant to be in this very moment . . . in this given hour . . . on this given day, and you're just going to invite that White Light of Source to come through your heart space and just visualize that white light, fill up your heart space completely. And as soon as that white light fills you entirely in that heart space, invite that white light to then emanate outwards into the space that surrounds you, and ask that benevolent white light to fill that space completely until you are entirely enveloped and covered in that light. Once the space immediately outside of you is filled with that white light of source, invite that light to fill the space beyond this room, whether you are outdoors or in a building, just invite that light to fill up the entire space beyond. And once that space is filled, extend that out even further until the entire world is filled with this white light. As soon as you can see the world filled with this light, go ahead and breathe in the source light, in through the nose until it is filling your chest once again and moving all the way down, down your legs to your feet,  extending to the floor and below into the earth to the core, and breathe in once again, breathe out and when you are ready, you can open your eyes.