From the moment we take our first step on our healing path, the course is never a straight line.

For every step forward, we take two steps back. This is because as we evolve as conscious beings, every single part of ourselves, our bodies, our awareness must evolve along with us. So while our minds may grasp a concept, our hearts (as in our emotional center) may not have learned what it needs, or our physical bodies may need time to catch up, or it may be that the lesson hasn’t reached our spiritual body because our emotions haven’t yet healed.

That’s why, while it seems we may have learned what we’ve needed, we may end up going back to that situation or relationship or person for yet another lesson. It’s not because we’re dense or stupid, but it may be that we don’t have every piece of wisdom needed to be able to move forward and jump into the next growth opportunity. 

The key to moving through these loops as quickly as possible is to go inside. The more internal work we do, as in the more we access our emotional and therefore spiritual bodies to heal, the more able it is to facilitate healing in our other bodies and accelerate our growth.  

Going within is one of the most challenging steps to undergo in our evolution because it is new and unfamiliar for many of us. When we choose to enter ourselves this way and experience what for many may be experienced as the “Dark Night of the Soul”, it allows us to see ourselves in a way that we cannot through the filter of our minds. This can be truly painful because we’re forced to work through those layers of perceived imperfections that our egos have been protecting us from seeing. In order to burn out those layers, we may confront ourselves through anger or deep emotional purging. We may want to lash out in blame or bitter disappointment. 

 Whatever we experience and however we feel this is how it is to be for us. There is no judging or questioning our emotions. Allowing them is the most effective way to release them and divest ourselves of the ego layers we no longer need. And the less we need to operate from our egos, the stronger our relationship can be to ourselves and others.